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Identity

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you said “I love you”
to a fake cracking smile,
the radiant mask behind which
hid angry eyes red from crying,
the forced carefree laughter
from a throat dying to scream,
and nervous hands shaking
with each planned gesture

in doing so, you gave
my brilliant lie permanence

addicted to your praise
and happiness truer than mine
I paid for your company
with my real identity

I was whatever you wanted me to be
I let your ‘me’ become me

one abrupt and painful breakup,
two litres of angry tears,
and three restless nights
filled with screaming later,

I still haven’t reclaimed myself.
...

It's KIND of a personal piece. No, I didn't break up with anyone (haven't been going out with anyone >.> ), but.. hyper-developed sense of self here.

I always wonder just how far I'd go and how much I'd change for someone, for the world. Because I would. But even so, I have to draw the line somewhere, right?

...I don't know.
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XxLonesomeDovexX's avatar
Wow!!
This is so amazing! :heart:
You are so so so talented :D